Where'd you go life. I think you just opened a doorway to hell

My life SUCKS. Family seriously needs counselling and in going crazy. We never go out somewhere and my mom and dad have a HUGE communication gap. When ever we are supposed to go somewhere my dad ends up inaugurated grumpy moody mood with a weeping wife a phoppo who's always butting in and two little children are inaugurated bad mood for not getting to go. all through this me and my elder sister are the ones who have to try and control the stupid situation. And frankly speaking we have given uo hope on this family. There's nothing left in our house. Its just sad angry annoyed house..

Our Inspiration Comes From Odd Places. Ones We Never Thought They Would

When I Look At You - Miley Cyrus
Everybody needs inspiration,
Everbody needs a song.
A beautiful melody,
When the night's are long.
Cause there is no guarantee,
That this life is easy.
And when my world is falling apart.
When there's no light to break up the dark,
That's when I, I, I look at you.
When the waves are flooding the shore,
and I can't find my way home anymore.
That's when I, I, I look at you.
When I look at you,
I see forgiveness,
I see the truth.
You love me for who I am,
Like the stars hold the moon,
Right there where they belong.
and I know im not alone.
Yeah when my world is falling apart,
When there's no light to break up the dark,
That's when I, I, I look at you.
When the waves are flooding the shore,
and I can't find my way home anymore,
That's when I, I, I look at you.
You, appear just like a dream to me.
Just like kaleidoscope colours,
That cover me,
All I need,
Every breath that I breathe,
Don't you know you're beautiful!
Yeah
When the waves are flooding the shore,
and I can't find my way home anymore,
That's when I, I, I look at you.
I look at you, Yeah, Woah.
You, appear just like a dream to me.

Ive fallen i love with this song (:  Although its supposed to be a love song it reminds me of so many peopl. im particular my best friends. Theyve always been there for me and its amazing how they havent turned their back on me even when ive been so bad to them. I LOVE YOU GUYS (:

Sometimes Being in the centre isnt a good thing.

Hey again. its been a while since Ive written. 

good news?- EXAMS ARE OVEERRRRRRR (:
Bad news? - I think i have some sort of emotional disorder. i guess i could feel that way but i know its not true because i searched on emotional disorders and everything but i have this feeling in my gut that something  is not right. any clues what to do? godd my life is messed up. what do i do? should i tell my parents? or not? they already think I'm a bit crazy and think that i make stuff up to get attention-WHICH I DO NOT. what do i Do? Im Torn in between.

Sometimes It feels Good To Try And Break Free. - Even If The Plan Fails

Hi agian. Basically im not exactly a very exciting person but the thing is that as it is our last year, me and my friends decided to do something 'daring'. Living in Pakistan, theres not much that can be done. However, we came up with a plan to bunk school . The planning started Friday ( April 23rd) when me my friends( lets call her S) decided to make a plan for a day of fun. In came my Friends  AM, F and N. thus we a group of five decided to bunk school.  the feeling - it was amazing. literally. I had never done anything like this and basically it felt good to have fun. knowing that it wasnt allowed and we were breaking the rules made it even more valuable to us. the plan was wed come to school in the morning, but we wouldnt go in. however we had to go in (the guard forced us too :( - ) this was mistake number one. Then my friends car was supposed to pick us up nad it wasnt there. - mistake number two. mistake number three? well it wasnt a mistake it was just the fact that we gave up and decided to come to school instead. :P so there goes our best day ever. and there goes the Dunkin Dounuts that we were supposed to have.
Even though the plan failed - the feeling i felt was AMAZING. it felt good, exciting probably the best feeling ive ever had in my fourteen years of existence. the feeling is undescribable. it was like getting water after spending a million nights in the desert. People would probably think that im over exaggerating my feelings but for me - a girl who never gets to go Anywhere - this is ACTUALLY what it felt like. so yeaah. guess thats about it.
Random?  I Know :P  

Skip School To Study - Write Blogs Instead.

Hey This is Aisha. Im most probably the most random person ever. But basically i needed a place to vent out my feelings where my parents wouldn't stalk me. ( My parents fished out my diary and read it :@)
Basically im from pakistan but im an odd chick. my family thinks im a stupid idiot even though i manage to get decentt grades. I live in an over protective household where talking to guys is kind off off limis and specially texting them. And we arent even a proper islamic family! My mom and dad refuse to give me a cell phone for this reason only and im supposed to get it when i turn 15 (Im 14 right now). My sister just got a phone and its already been confiscated for "talking to boys too much". life's a bitch. i totally agree with this. My exams are coming up and i have to study. so i cant right muchh right now but in a while will do so.